M@DD0G wrote: I recognize that writing from my days in the service during the Cold War...and a cute little Ruskie named Oksana....
Ahhhhhhhh....memories.....LOL!
:peace_v:
What writing? Am I missing something here?
mAmA
{DOU} yO mAmA wrote: What writing? Am I missing something here?
mAmA
Not really, I wrote in Russian in a post about a troublemaker player. Maddog made his statement about cold war when he saw the Russian cirilic characters and I decided to begin a new topic named memories, due he used that word, and because I was feeling nostalgic at this time....
I used his post to begin the topic...
Thanks for filling me in R-Mad.
In the first post It shows as belonging to Maddog.
By the way I too enjoyed your poetry and thought it was very good. You should put a book together and try to get it published.
There are many veterans from many wars that I think would relate to your work 8)
mAmA
Thanks mAmA.
I used to write letters to my father (I never sent it anyway, I only wrote it for me).
I translated a letter to share. I do not know if my english expresses the feelings that I wrote to him...
Sometimes I look at you without you see me, only to watch your wrinkled hands full of work, and your white hair, soft and silky, as the grandfather Misha had. I look to you with love, with the same love I looked at you as we walked through the old train tracks to my little school. Myself singing child’s songs, and you, with your bag of tools and a sad look in your face, may be dreaming in coming back to your yearn land, so far in the time and distance.
I know my father, that you never wanted to leave your land ... I know that you should flee for your life. And you went with my mother dying, crossing the mountains, because your love was so great that nothing will stop you, for her to live, and for me, that seed which she was carrying, also could live ...
And you left behind the country of mountains and hills, full of golden sand beaches, and sun ...; and you would have liked me to be born Copihue flower, or a Rosa Besito (Kiss Rose) flower from the hills of your beloved Valparaiso.
I opened my eyes there, where there are no hills or mountains, far from the sandy beaches and sun. In this land full of fragrant golden wheat fields, where they mix the powder and the beautiful flowers and butterflies. The scented forests, full of animals, with these giant tailed squirrels, that I sought to give them breadcrumbs and try to embrace them…. And you call me squirrel (belka) and laughed with me.
I opened my eyes, in that land washed by the great mother river, where small barges plied the waters, which we did signs from the shore, while we sank our feet into the cold blue waters. In this land that has all colors in summer and white, only white, in winter. The land where the grandfather Misha warmly welcomed you, which you repeated me: is not your grandfather, but I loved him as such, and I was excited when he used to talk about his war stories.
The grandfather Misha had come to Vienna chasing Nazis after thousands of miles, sometimes on foot, sometimes mounted on a tank, and he was speaking, with his eyes full of tears, of their comrades who had fallen by the wayside. Then he sang songs, and while the adults danced and clapped, we the younger and kids, watched from under the table eating cakes that grandma Vika did.
Sometimes I think that you have forgotten all that was our life time… And I know that sometimes you do not understand me, and you do not know why I have my eyes filled with sadness. Perhaps it is that you forget that I was not born nor Copihue flower neither Rosa Besito flower. I am a golden Sunflower with yellow petals. And I really miss my field of sunflowers. I miss the squirrels running over the trees and the blue waters of my river.....
La noche ya termina y comienza a amanecer, y tú aún bailas un vals con mi madre, ajenos a todo cansancio. Estás feliz en tu casa cerca de la playa.
Y yo te miro con la admiración que sentía cuando niña, y tu partías a la AutoVaz caminando a tomar el autobus eléctrico, con las calles llenas de nieve.
Y todavía te veo cuando llegabas el día de pagos, con tu bolso lleno de regalos. Un gran chocolate para mi madre. Una muñeca para mí. Y besos para ambas.
R_Mad, so sad is your story and full of love at the same time - es tan triste tu historia y lleno de amor al mismo tiempo.
For you, in this new year dear Vika, Vlad, Andrei and specially for you Zoya...
I miss you but I love all you....
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E4CRKCHNkAM
I see trees of green, red roses too
I see them bloom for me and you
and I think to myself, what a wonderful world.
I see skies of blue and clouds of white
the bright blessed day, the dark sacred night
and I think to myself, what a wonderful world.
The colors of the rainbow so pretty in the sky
are also on the faces of people going by
I see friends shaking hands saying "how do you do"
they´re really saying "I love you"
I hear babies crying, I watch them grow
they´ll learn much more than I´ll ever know
and I think to myself, what a wonderful world
yes I think to myself, what a wonderful world.
Padre.
La noche del año nuevo, mis palabras te hicieron llorar. Yo no quería que sintieras tristeza. Sólo quería decirte que no debes olvidar a quienes te tendieron la mano con amor y fraternidad para que pudieras tener un lugar y un hogar para vivir lejos de tu tierra querida.
Yo sólo quería que recordaras, que una vez construias automóviles, lleno de orgullo, en la fabrica donde tenías tantos amigos que cuidaban de tí y de nosotros.
Tu querías y soñabas con un hijo que fuese militar como tu familia ancenstral. Y aunque mujer, yo vestí el uniforme militar para darte gusto.
Tu querías un hijo varón que fuese militar, pero fui yo la que vivió los tiempos de guerra, de horror y muerte allá en las montañas del Daguestán que tu nunca conociste, ni que supiste que existía....
También quería que recordaras que al final yo dejé mi tierra madre, mis amigos, mis compañeros de armas y hermanos de sangre, para venir contigo a cuidar de ti y mi madre...
Y así como tu extrañabas los bellos cerros de tu Valparaíso, ahora yo extraño los bellos bosques de mi Toggliatti amada.
La vida nos dio este dilema terrible, pero nada hará que cambie mi amor por tí. Tu ya cuidaste de mí. Ahora yo cuidaré de tí.
Sólo te pido que no olvides...
Zoya, do you remember when we were coming on the train across the vast plain before crossing the river ...?
You were asleep while I stared out the window, marveling at such immensity.
A few months ago before that, we were naive girls with 25 y.o.
Now it seems that ten years have passed...
Neither you nor I will ever be the same after living the wartimes...
I remember looking at you while you were sleeping and I think how lucky I was to have you as a friend...
My dear friend who saved my life...
Even I have a debt to you...
When I look at my kids, I think I should take them there, so that one day they might know you.
Just as I was proud to be your first lieutenant, now I would be proud to greet you "Ready my Colonel" and serve under your command...
P.S. In Memoriam of heroin Irina Yanina.
Meditation
Summer, 1999.
You were sending me letters, talking about your back pain and trouble walking.
I wrote you I was resting at Misha's home.
You lied to me. You did not have any problems. You were trying to bring me back to Chile.
I lied to you. I was not resting at all.
I was guiding planes to protect Makhachkala...
I was taking care of our rooks.
Yes, those damn planes as you said...
You were saying that you were dying and you were nice.
I was saying to you that I was nice, and almost I was dying after the ambush in the forest.
Sad times in the family. Times of lies.
January, 2013.
You continue lying to me? Why?.
In these times I'm near you. You have the kids near you. You have the family near you. What is what you need?
And please, do not ask me to take your Religion. I can not. I do not want.
I believe in God. My God.
A God without heaven, without hell. An armony God.
A God of life.
The only God who give us life. The starlight.
We are sons and daughters from the light.
We are light from stars. You know...
So I believe.
We come from the light and we'll be light again.
I can pray like you. But I only pray to the stars...
Do not shake your head. I'm not asking you to believe me. Just accept me.
Anyway.
Do not be afraid. I know you feel afraid about me...
But, I never will leave you alone dear father. Be sure.
I love you.
It will be continued?
Not really
Thx to read Radek.
Kids need me...
Closed.